Beta #2 = )

I am sorry to keep this short but I had beta #2 done today.  My stomach was a ball of knots all morning until I heard back from my clinic around noon.  My beta came back at 1065.  31 hours doubling time!  Next step is to schedule my first u/s around 7w.  A 2 1/2 week wait instead of 1 1/2 weeks!  How will I make it?  One day at a time, right?  I just have to remember to breathe, enjoy & take things one day / step at a time!! Otherwise I will drive myself & everyone around me nuts!!!

Thank you for all of the support & well wishes!  Happy Thanksgiving for my US friends! And happy 1/2 way through the week for those not celebrating Thanksgiving!

Beta Day

Today was beta day and as usual, very nerve-wracking even though I had been testing with HPTs the last few days!  Thankfully work was busy so it kept my mind semi-distracted and then my local nurse, who I love, emailed me the results as well.  My beta came back at 363!  I go back on Wednesday for beta #2. The CA clinic did not check progesterone and it seems like talking to a friend that it is not part of their protocol.  I am on PIO so it should be OK but I sent an email tonight to double check & ask if it might be possible to get it tested just for peace of mind as I am a nervous patient.  It seems like drs are split on whether they test or do not test so if they say no, I will trust that it is OK & not worry although I would rather know, having known in the past!

Transfer Complete! Now we wait!!

I have been a little quiet lately mainly to minimize my stress levels and guard myself. This process can be so overwhelming so I am trying to do everything within my control to prevent that feeling from happening. Work is stressful right now too.  And add on daycare frustrations that we are trying to work through - minimizing stress is not easy!!

I had my transfer on Saturday 11/16 so I am 2dp5dt of 2 beautiful embies!! I apologize the picture is upside down.

I managed to do the PIO shot myself for the last 4 days. I ended up giving myself a huge bruise as I had to do them on the same side each night since I couldn't reach the other side well enough. One night I had to even poke myself twice because I did not get all the PIO out of the syringe! Between that and the bruises the lovenox is leaving, I am a mess!! Fun times but if this works, it will be worth it times infinity! Beta on 11/25 so I am hoping & praying with all my might that this brings us our rainbow baby/ies! One more week to go!!

Short Update

With the time change, I am exhausted! I shouldn't be but between not sleeping well last night (thankful to my snoring husband) & my little guy being up early, it has been a longggg day! We had a fun day with going to the children's museum but I am pretty tired. I realized it has been three weeks since I have last written. Work is still crazy but that is a good thing! It has helped to keep me distracted from thinking about our cycle too much! I have a lining check on Tuesday and I am praying all is good! I am very very nervous as I have never been on estrogen patches before. I am afraid for some reason that they are not working! I have been on them for almost 2 weeks and today when I peeled them off to change them, my skin was all red & itchy! Weird! I wonder why after two weeks this has happened??? If it happens again on Tuesday, I will ask my nurse at my lining check if this is normal or not! Fingers crossed all is good on the lining front and we will be given a transfer date!! Then I can make my plane, hotel & car reservations! I am very nervous about the possibility of having to do PIO on my own. Not sure I can do it!! I may need to see if the clinic can help me. My DH will not be going with me as he will stay here to watch our little guy. Have you ever given PIO to yourself? I do have some crinone. Do you think it would be ok to ask to use this for a few days while I am out there or is it bad to rotate between the two different kinds of progesterone? I am not afraid of the PIO shot being given by someone else. Just afraid of giving it to myself. On a non TTC note, My 11th anniversary was yesterday! Hard to believe we have been married for 11 years! We went out for sushi to one of our favorite restaurants (called TakoSushi.) They have Japanese & Mexican food so my little guy has quesadillas! It is a perfect mix. Hopefully though it is my last round of sushi for a long long time (unless we squeeze it in one more time before our transfer.) It was an uneventful anniversary! We took my little guy to the park & zoo in the morning, took a nap and then went to dinner!! It was perfect! I much prefer low-key celebrations! All in all, life is pretty good! Always missing my angel! But blessed for having my DH, my little guy here and my angel in my heart! The week my transfer will be if all is good on Tuesday will be when my due date was supposed to be last year. It will be a tough week as I should be celebrating a 1st birthday but hopefully Ethan will be watching over us!! Time for bed!! Good night!