One Year Ago Today / Small Update

One year ago today was my IUI that brought us our sweet angel.  It is so hard to believe that it has been a year.  And quite the year it has been.  I miss my little boy more than words can say.  I have come a long way since June of last year.  As much as it is so unfair that we lost him and how I would so much rather have him here with us, I am so very thankful for the short time we were able to spend together.  He has definitely helped me to be a better and more compassionate person.  Although it has not started out as we had hoped, I am hoping that 2013 is less of a roller-coaster and that we are able to expand our family.

We are still trying to decide what our next steps are going to be but my DH is finally ready to get his SA done next week to check his counts.  I brought up the SA last night and my DH got all stressed out about it. In retrospect, I probably should have waited to ask him as it was later in the evening and I had just gotten home from my support group.  I am always emotional after my support group.  After talking last night, I thought we were pretty much on the path to take another cycle off.  However, today my DH apologized for reacting the way he did and would like to move forward with getting the SA done next week.  I am going to call in the morning to make an appointment.  I told him I did not want to pressure him but my body clock is ticking really loud.  I told him I want us to be on the same page so even if we get the SA done next week, we can still decide it is best to take another cycle off.  Although I really do not want to!  So, we shall see.  At least my DH being ready for his SA is a small step forward.  Here's hoping that his counts are strong enough to do one more IUI!!  If not, IVF here we come!